It's time to stop messing around and get serious about losing the weight. The time is now
and I am the person who has to do the work.

Friday, December 31, 2010

A New Blog

I started a new picture blog for the new year.
A picture a day for 365 days.
Please come visit.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

The Power of One / The Beginning

There is a new challenge starting today at the Sisterhood and it has me really excited. I say that every challenge, but I really mean it this time. The Power of One is all about me and only me. It's about what I can do for me and only me. It's about learning to love me and care about me. It's about giving to myself and not every one around me first. At least that is what I think it's about or what I am going to make it about. Me baby, just me!

I am starting this challenge totally disgusted with myself. I have crept back into that decade that I swore I would never see again. Just barely, but I still did it. I weighed 200.4 today and it made me sick. I thought I kept things better in check this holiday, but I guess not. As they say, the scales don't lie.

I am supposed to state my healthy living goals for this challenge. They will be my healthy living goals forever, if I have anything to say about it. Here goes....

1. Never miss a Wednesday weigh in.

2. Keep my water intake at no less than 64 ounces a day, but shooting for more than that.

3. Keep all the unhealthy snack crap out of the house. If my family insists on having it, they can keep it in other places than the kitchen and not tell me where it is.

4. Exercise no less than 5 days a week. I have to walk every day! No excuses.

5. I need to be doing cardio 3 to 5 days a week. It can be EA Sports Active or Wii exercise discs, but it has to be cardio.

6. Do the tworkout every week.

7. Get back to logging my food. I don't do Weight Watchers anymore, but I can still log my food. I need the accountability of that.

8. Don't think of all this as a way to lose weight. Think of it as a way to get healthy and stay that way and hope that the weight comes off in the process.

9. Don't let all the outside influences in my life sidetrack me in my quest.

I've had a lot of problems with number 9 in the last month or so. I know I've been cryptic about it in my posts and that's how it has to be, but being home this last week or so has made a huge difference in my stress levels and I'm hoping it can stay that way.

I think I might take pictures tonight. I'll definitely measure. I don't think I'll be posting the pictures now. Maybe at the end of the challenge if there is a visible difference. I had enough stress with the "exposed" pictures for now.

That is the plan ladies. I am truly looking forward to this challenge. Maybe I can be the next Mary and be the old girl who wins this. I'm going to give it my best shot. Catch me if you can because I have the "Power of One"!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Holiday Hoedown Finale

Where did this time go? How can it be the finale of this challenge when it seems like we have just begun. It's like time is just flying be lately and I'm just trying to hold on. I feel like I'm just flying be the seat of my pants lately.

I started this challenge at 199.6 pounds. I wasn't happy about that at all. I finish at 196.1 pounds. Unfortunately, that's what I weighed last week. I was hoping to post a loss for my team. You see, we've been in first place the last two weeks and I was hoping to finish there. We'll just have to see happens. Anyway, that means I post a loss of 3.5 pounds for the challenge.

The thing that I loved most about this challenge was being an honorary Hibner for six weeks. They are the best family ever and so much fun. I met Beth when I had her kids in preschool. I met her mom, Mary through them and her sister, Amy doing the March of Dimes walks. I met sister Sarah at Beth's baby shower. Everyone else I met via the internet during this challenge. They are a fun and supportive family and I loved being one of them for this challenge.

The thing that I loved least about this challenge was my attitude for the last few weeks. I've had some major stress going on and most of my loss has been from stress and not my actively working on losing the weight. I'm on my two week Christmas break from work and I plan to relax and regroup and get my head back on straight and get ready for the next challenge.

The Power of One sounds like just what I need right now. I need to get back to me. Thinking about me and working on being the better me. I need to remember that I can't control everything in my life and sometimes you just have to let go and let it all unfold and start from there.

It sounds like Christmas eve is going to be just me and the hubby. Weird! We will have the kids and grandkids over for our traditional Christmas breakfast. We'll eat and open presents and it will be wonderful. In the afternoon, we will all head over to my mom's house for the big family Christmas dinner. All 33 of us. Mom's house isn't that big, so when we start to open presents and the paper starts flying, it is something to see. The 26th is my oldest daughters birthday, so once again we will be eating and celebrating. Christy said that the average person gains 11 pounds during this season. That scares me. I'd hate to thinkof starting the next challenge over 200 pounds.

So I'm promenading off into the sunset of this challenge a little lighter, but a little stressed. I'm hoping the next two weeks will change all that and I'll be ready to focus on the Power of One and that One is me!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

True Confessions's Tuesday again and I'm in the same rut I was in last week.

Not good!!

Those damn stress levels are still way up there and I have more going on this week than last.

I wish I could explain to you all what is going on, but I can't. If you live in the area, you will probably know. But, that isn't even the whole problem.

I had a huge wake up call though on Saturday morning.!!

I had a surprise college graduation party for my daughter on Friday night and I was uploading the pictures to the computer Saturday and saw this picture.

I cried. I really cried. My ass is the size of a barn door and I'm not saying that for sympathy. I'm saying it because it truly is.

What a freakin wake up call that was.

Stress or no stress, I have to get that fat ass in gear again.

I am so embarrassed I could die.

How did I not see this before? I knew I was fat, but obviously I haven't seen a picture of me sitting down in a long time. Standing up it doesn't look that bad. Maybe in some weird way, this is a good thing that happened. Maybe shock therapy is what I needed.

Here is the plan to move on from this point.

1. I have to eat. I've eaten so little in the last few weeks. It has been nice for weight loss for my team, but not good for me physically. I'm tired and crabby. I just don't feel good.

2. I'm back to drinking 3 or 4 diet cokes a day. I haven't done that in probably close to a year. I'm back on the water starting today. I feel a headache coming on, but I can deal with it.

3. I have to exercise every day in some way. I have two new wii workout discs and I am not even using them. How stupid is that?

4. I have to get to the store and get some good food in this house. It's not that I am eating bad food so much as I'm just not eating.

5. I am looking forward to Friday. It's the last day of school and then two weeks off for Christmas break. I promise that I will use those two weeks to truly get back on track and lose the fat ass and every other fat body part that goes with it.

6. I promise myself that I will work on the inside of me. I have to get beyond everything that is going on around me and get back to me and what I can control.

7. And I'm going to start this all off with the tworkout tonight. I totally missed it last week by falling asleep in front of the tv set wating for it to start. That will not be happening this week.

What about you? What do you have to confess? let me tell you that I feel better just saying this all to you. Try it!

Monday, December 6, 2010

True Confessions

I don't even know where to start with this confession this week. It's been one hell of a week and I haven't been good about much. The stress levels in my life are at peek levels and I can't even really tell you why. It's all stuff that I can't talk about right now. It sucks! It just sucks big time. Here is what I can tell you.

1. I'm hardly eating and when I am, it's pretty much crap. When I am a ball of nerves, eating makes me sick to my stomache. I'm worried that I won't have a good loss this week because I keep hearing that not eating can be worse than eating too much. Supposedly, my body will try to hold on to what it has. Just my luck.

2. With the exception of 50 minutes on the treadmill, the only exercise I have done has been on the wii. I suppose that is better than no exercise at all.

3. I have so totally let my team down this week. I was the one who was so excited last week when the leaderboard came up. We were in 4th place and so not out of reach of 1st place. I sent out an email telling my team that we could take 1st place if we really tried. All I can do now is pray that my body gave up some weight instead of holding on to it. I have one day to work my ass off and see what happens.

4. After reading Mary's guest post at the Sisterhood about the new Weight Watchers, I'm beginning to think that maybe I shouldn't have cancelled mine.
5. I just realized that my True Confessions button is under this instead of on top of it. That's just how this week has gone.

I have a giveaway going on my other blog. I have a My Shape with Jenny McCarthy Wii game to give away. I've been wanting to try this for awhile now and found them for a great price on ebay. I got one for me and for you. I've only tried it once, but I liked it. Go over here and enter.

I hope you all had a better week than me.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Your Shape Giveaway

I'm having a giveaway on my other blog for the Your Shape with Jenny McCarthy wii game. If you'd like to enter, go here.